Yesterday was…dramatic…

Yeah, I know. Yesterday’s post was certainly dramatic, but what can I say? I’m just a dramatic guy like that. In any case, the drama is most likely far from over. December and January tend to be 2 of my worst months. Between Christmas and my birthday I just find it harder to maintain solid ground—mentally speaking.

Did get me thinking though.

I’d already started trying to set out my goals for next year and, well, they were a lot like they’ve been for a number of years. They all focus on overly-ambitious career/art goals. The idea, at the heart of it all, was buying my good-feelings with accomplishments. They weren’t wrong by any means, or even bad, they just weren’t right for me. I need to focus on my mental health, on acceptance, and on living in the present.

I just threw up a little in my mouth.

The cringe is real, too real. The fact that I read the last 2 lines in Chris Pratt’s voice concerns me.

That said, it’s worth noting I may completely change this when I wake up. I may try, fail, and then delete everything that confirms this failure and pretend it never happened.

Or maybe I’ll succeed…