Eat a bowl of suck

Not really.

I’m just a fan of the expression.

Furthermore, as a biological male, the expression “suck my dick” feels so played out these days. Egregiously, it couples something delightful with a derogatory tone and, as someone who hasn’t had his dick sucked in a decade, I’d much rather people think it, if not pleasant than at least a kindness, rather than the last thing they would want to do.

God I’m lonely. No, lonely isn’t the right word. Neither is desperate. Horny is relatively close, but that would be solved by masturbation.

Horny for companionship?

Let’s go with that.

I’ll take care of the horny with my hand, but it sure would nice to do so with a person every once in a while. Shame about that anxiety.

Anyways…

Brainstorming new ideas for the next decade is going well. The erotic stories are flexing my brain, particularly regarding variety. I’m not only really digging into the recesses of my mind, but also doing some research into various kinks. I’m excited for the way this will stretch my writing as, while somewhat formulaic initially, I have no doubt that I’ll start to wiggle about as I start to get bored of the same sort of shit starts dribbling from my pen. The real trick will be to keep it both sexy and respectable to the audience—particularly with the kinks I don’t share.

The essays are already bolstering my misplaced confidence in subject alone. Don’t get me wrong, I still am entirely aware that it will be mostly self-serving bullshit—or just a more generalized bullshit—but maintaining this webpage and using it as a place to post them gives me no small amount of joy. I truly love the idea of moving farther and farther away from social media, of creating content solely for this little world below my url rather than for mass content machines.

Does it mean that my work will be seen even less?

It sure does, but everyday I’m growing more okay with that. If nothing else, it will hopefully help to increase my authenticity. If I don’t have an audience, who do I really have to worry about?

Famous last words to be sure.

Dicks for listening!